to blog or not to blog

days off from work is perfect for commencing a fresh and new blog post. that means i have something to rant or rave about. since this morning, i have been contemplating on what topic to write. i often find myself freezing in front of the computer with nothing in mind. so i decided, i might as well talk about blogging.

i call myself a blogger but not a pro. i write informally and casually with an unpredictable subject matter. i do not highlight grammar rules, punctuations and spellings. and my blog doesn't even attract a vast audience. i do not have guiding principles to live by in writing blogs. most of my chosen topics are randomly picked. but when i am either blissful or in a low state, then my desire to write is intensified.

just recently, my bf was a bit in awe or maybe shocked is a better word, after going through my blog site. it came as a surprise to him that i actually put my thoughts into writing. hahahaha!!! talk about discovering the other side of me. i mean the positive side of me, i hope. writing defines a part of me but not all of me. it will be an incessant journey for us unearthing each other's strengths and weaknesses.

not all my subject materials are engaging and inherently interesting. not at all times i make sense and easy to comprehend. and my writing style may not be witty and appealing. but then again, i just want to write. i consider myself fortunate that i am actually doing something that i love. this is what i call real fulfillment and joy!

the blogger cat is sleepy now. ZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....!!!!



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at my lowest point

Giving up is the closest option at this point. When everything else seems wrong and untimely, then I start questioning. Life is beautiful -- a cliche that is too good to be true. Perhaps lasting a relatively brief time. As in a catnap, you're suddenly awaken and pressing the snooze button is a necessity. Problems call for my attention from time to time. On a personal level, I am too preoccupied with the aspects of my life that are not going well for me. I still haven't got the hangs of it. And I am still learning the ropes. I am truthfully, still struggling and almost spilled out. I have cried and even wept. Even went to work sobber. I have done unintentional mistakes and hurt people. To which I regret at the end of the day. I am doing all that I could in my routine life in the hope of better consequences. But each time I wake up, then I realize that the world is still the same. None of my expectations came about and materialized. So tiring and debilitating.

"When life gives you lemons, make lemonade." This quote sounds funny but packed with sense. So, when life hands me lemons, what would I do with it? Be thankful for sure for its free. But if lemons represent trials and hardships, would I still be appreciative of the sweet gesture? Maybe not anymore. But maybe, I can still make the best out of bad or severe situation. Turning bad things into good ones and viewing life on a different perspective. After all, life is not perfect. Aiming for perfection is impossible. It is elusive and futile. Easier said than done, i know. To end, i must say that when life hands me lemons, I'll ask for salt and tequila!