Melancholy

There's way too much I could think of on how to start this blog. Its been a while I know. So much has happened. I absolutely think things are meant to be broken. And I am destined, to confront exquisite pain in the strictest sense. Promises are broken as fast as they're made. Anything can transpire in a flash, in a second, in a heartbeat. Nothing is promised and surely nothing is guaranteed. Imperfect. Chaotic.

I do not intend to evoke a poignant post, but the way life has been presenting itself recently simply sucks! We can't have the best of both worlds. We basically can't have the best of everything. This maybe a little too overrated but its in accordance to reality. As much as I want to stay positive, circumstances failed me massively. People deliberately say or do things that hurt. Cursing the world is an option but I'd rather not.

I am apparently good in pretending like it wasn't a big deal when really it was breaking my heart into pieces. I have mastered the art of putting on a brave front to hide my disappointments and frustrations. I maybe smiling on the outside but I am broken inside. I have been through a lot of painful experiences in life. One of the saddest things to realize is that certain people are just not who they used to be. The people you once considered friends are now, at best, strangers. The dissolution of friendships is a despairing reality. The previous weeks has been tough and my emotions are everywhere. I hope i could go through this phase and brave it with flying colors.

I vowed to look at things from a philosophical view or standpoint. Life is a one time offer, utilize it well. Love harder and without boundaries. Forgive more and forget what hurts you. Love is painful, but the pain would always be worth it. No matter what, always choose love. On the days of struggle, learn to count blessings on repeat. There are just too many good things to be ungrateful. Easier said than done i know, but healing is a process. And, we must trust this process. It may be hard now and may not make sense but it will someday. Cliche as it may seem, i believe everything happens for a reason. Our experiences are designed to shape us, define us, and hopefully, grow us into the strongest we can possibly be. Life is too short to waste time on hating and and being miserable. Laugh, apologize, forgive and let go...